Stacia McKellum Interview, November 4, 2020
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- Jamie SandersOkay, we're wherever we're on. We're ready. Sorry, I don't know why I'm so jittery. So I'm Jamie Sanders and today I'll be talking to Stacia McL- Today is November 4, 2020. We're conducting this interview online via TheirStory. And today we'll be discussing Stacia's involvement in Black Lives Matter protests in the Dallas Fort Worth area, mostly focusing on her involvement in recent protests at SMU. So do I have your permission to record this interview?
- Stacia MckellumYes.
- Jamie SandersAwesome.
- Jamie SandersSo first, let's start off with a little background. Where are you from?
- Stacia MckellumI'm from Desoto, Texas
- Jamie SandersI'm from red oak.
- Stacia MckellumOkay, yeah.
- Jamie SandersSo can you tell me a little bit about that area?
- Stacia MckellumUm, I mean, it's a suburb of Dallas, not much really goes on there. I didn't a lot of people from Desoto tend to go to the Desoto High school, but I didn't go to high school in Desoto. But yeah, it's pretty quiet. Lots of old people in my neighborhood, at least.
- Jamie SandersSo how do you feel that growing up there has shaped you?
- Stacia MckellumWell, I think I think I went to the school for one year. And I think that shaped me a lot, in the sense that like, it really showed me some of the work that needs to be done as far as like, um with black people in our educational system, like the difference between like, going to the Desoto school for that one year, and then like transitioning to school in Waxahachie after that. I was like, the availability of resources is really different. And just also, the educational structure in general is really different. So from that, I just learned about that, and like, kind of, like, yeah, there's work that needs to be done in that area.
- Jamie SandersSo can you tell me a little bit about your family?
- Stacia MckellumI have two older brothers, and a younger sister, a mom and a dad. Um my father is disabled. He's been disabled since I was four. He was in an 18 Wheeler accident, because he was a truck driver. My mom currently works in (soft speaking) like, she basically sells funerals. So yeah.
- Jamie SandersWhat does that mean?
- Stacia MckellumBasically, like she's a, there's a specific title for it. But like if someone in your family passes and like you go to the funeral home to like, prepare for them to do that, like she'll, she helps you with that. Or like, even before, if you're like preparing, like, Okay, I know that I'm going to die someday, then like, she helps like, get your arrangements in order. So that way it in the event that it does happen, like your family doesn't have to like deal with the burden of like, trying to figure out everything.
- Jamie SandersOh okay, so she's a funeral home- Is she a director or she just works there?
- Stacia MckellumShe works there. Yeah.
- Jamie SandersSo are you close with your family?
- Stacia MckellumI think so. I'm not close with my older brothers. But like my mom, my sister, and I are pretty close. I think for one also my older brothers. My oldest one is 11 years older than me. And the second one is eight years older than me. So for the longest amount of time, it was just my mom, my sister and my dad in the house, it was just us four, so I'm pretty close with them.
- Jamie SandersMm hmm. So the age gap kind of prevented you from getting closer to your older brothers.
- Stacia MckellumRight? And also just like gender differences.
- Stacia MckellumYeah.
- Jamie SandersSo how does your family feel about your activism?
- Stacia MckellumI actually don't know if they know everything in depth about what I've been doing. I think I never like officially told them I was involved with BLM SMU I think they kind of like put things together. Um, they (don't) know the full extent of the work I've been doing they especially don't know like I was like leading chants at a march of 500 people. But I think they know I'm somewhat involved in like, a Black Lives Matter group.
- Jamie SandersYeah, do they know from like social media or something like that? That's how they get to know that.
- Stacia MckellumI think I may have like briefly mentioned things or they know that Ti Who's my close friend, they've seen her like do, news interviews and things like that. So and also like, during quarantine, like they know I would be in the back like on my laptop going to meetings and stuff. So yeah
- Jamie SandersOh, so speaking of quarantine, are you staying with them? Are you staying near campus?
- Stacia MckellumI'm on campus right now.
- Jamie SandersOkay, cool. Um, so are they a little worried about your activism considering all of the violence thats been popping up and stuff like that?
- Stacia MckellumI think because they know so little, they're not worried. But I know if they knew more they would be like, I know I mentioned to you before that I had only gone to the one protest on campus. That's because like, over the summer, my parents like really tried to discourage my sister and I from going, because of like, of course, everything that was going on, they just wanted us to be safe. And so I think if they knew like, I think I feel more comfortable becaus like, of course, there's not like armed policemen at our protests. But I think they would still be, you know, a little scared
- Jamie SandersYeah. Do you think they specially didn't want you to go out through the initial George Floyd protest and stuff like that?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, for sure. I actually mentioned to them a couple of times, I really wanted to go. And they were just like, Yeah, no, you need to stay in the house. Like, do you see everything that's happening? And so? Yeah.
- Jamie SandersDo you think that has something to do with your identity as an African American? Well, the identity in America?
- Stacia MckellumOh, yes, I do. Um, Which part? Do you like their fear?
- Jamie SandersYeah, their fear of you going out to the protest? Is that because of your, because you're black? Or do you? What do you think about that?
- Stacia MckellumI think, I think that might May, like, have something to do with it, like play a large part in it. I think if I was a white person, like wanting to go and protest, they may think like, less harm may come to me, then me being a black person. And I also think they realize that the stakes are higher for me, like, if, you know, if I were killed, or if I was harmed in any way, or also if I was arrested, you know, like, they the results are, like more damaging for being a black person. And if I was a white person,
- Jamie Sanderslike, it seemed like a fear that like I, I know, since I have black parents as well, like a sort of unique fear with the black community's parents.
- Stacia MckellumYeah,
- Jamie Sandersthey're afraid of all this stuff that comes with just being an activist. And, yeah, they have a right to out of that. Anything to do with your gender as well.
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I mean, my parents have definitely, like, tried to shelter me from things specifically because I'm a woman. And then on top of that, being a black woman, I think if I was a man, they would be, they will feel more confident in me being able to handle myself, I think, but as a woman, they're like, Oh, we need to protect you. You're more fragile. You're more subject to like being harmed.
- Jamie SandersAnd since you have brothers have you noticed the difference with like, how they treat you and your brothers?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I think, um, and this is also just from other things that happened, because there was like, the 10 year difference of them, raising them and then raising us but yeah, my sister and I are definitely a lot more sheltered than like my brothers were. And I think some of that has to do with like, us being girls and them being boys.
- Jamie SandersAnd does, does their feelings and their lack of knowing and also their slight fear affect your activism? In any way?
- Stacia Mckellum>I, I don't,I think it does. If I concentrate on it a lot. I try to focus more on the work. But like, if I of course focus on like, wow, their fear is, like rooted in a real place. And then I'm like, okay, that becomes more real for me like, Oh, yeah, something could happen to me, that I think that would hinder me from wanting to go out and do the work. So I kind of tried not to focus on I think partially they may be from part of the reason why I don't tell them too much. Because like, it allows me to just kind of stay more focused on what I need to do.
- Jamie SandersMm hmm. Um, I asked you about growing up in Desoto, but I want to get more specific about your childhood. Can you tell me about how that was?
- Stacia MckellumUm sure. Um, I mean, I was a good student, for the most part, I was good behavior wise, for the most part. I mean, I had an attitude, you know. Um, my dad was a stay at home dad for the majority of my childhood, since I'm introduced to say, well, so I have a lot of respect for him, because he played a different role of a black man in my life than I had seen, like, outside I've seen more of like, of course, the black man being the provider for the family and not necessarily like the caretaker for the family. And so in my family that was kind of reversed, like my mom was the one that had to go out and work. And my dad was the one that like, stayed with us, went to all of our games like made us did our hair helps us with homework, all of that stuff. So, yeah, I think he was definitely a he definitely allowed me to see more of the positives of black men that you may not necessarily see from, like, just the stereotypes that are out in the world. Um, yeah, so I definitely respect him a lot for that, my mom, we've always been pretty close, because my dad was still, like, stereotypical as a black man in the sense that he was more emotionally distant. And so my mom was the one I kind of went to for that. And I think that just provided a nice balance, because like, even though my mom may have been away more, because she had to work, like, we still had that connection in like, I saw my dad more often. So it just like kind of balanced out. And my sister were 16 months apart. And we actually go to the same school right now. So, yeah, we've always been pretty close. Like we argue a lot. But yeah, we have a pretty good relationship.
- Jamie SandersIs she involved in activism with you? Or is she just going to SMU too?
- Stacia MckellumShe's she's just going to SMU. I think she definitely over the summer wants to go to protest. She definitely has, I think a heart for activism, but I don't necessarily know she like, wants to do it. And like an organizational capacity. Like, I think she would be more okay with like participating in it. I don't know if she would like, I don't know, I guess I would need to talk to her about that. But I know that she definitely like is interested in the activities of it.
- Jamie SandersCool. So can you tell me a little bit about your early experiences with the police?
- Stacia MckellumUm, yeah, sure. Actually, my experiences with the police were kind of different. I never really, I didn't know to fear the police too much. like growing up at first, because like, this was my older brothers, there was more turmoil in the household. So sometimes the police had to be called. So initially, and like nothing really bad happened for the most part. So initially, I always thought of "Oh, the police, are who you're supposed to call for help." But as I got older, I noticed that my parents would always kind of like, react a specific way. And then I was like, the catch onto that as in like, okay, maybe the police are not, you know, necessarily good. And so, um, I know, specifically, whenever my, like, Dad got pulled over, it was always like, everybody was on edge. And I didn't really know why, like growing up, and so my parents had to have that conversation with and then I also just get it going up older, I saw it more in the world, it became more apparent to me And so yeah, that's kind of where that.
- Jamie SandersOkay, um, so you talked earlier about how you went to school in Desoto for like just one year and then you move to Waxahachie? Can you tell me a little bit more about your school life and like, compare and contrast or whatever you like?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, so I actually went to DeSoto for like, elementary school. And then we transferred to, I don't know if you know what, this is the Life School, Life Charter School. Yes, I went there for elementary, I went second through sixth grade. And so after that, I think they wanted to separate my sister and I, they want to send me to Red Oak and sent her to Oak Cliff. And my parents wanted to keep us together. So they were like, okay, we're gonna put them in Desoto West for a year. And that year was, I don't think, I mean, of course, I enjoyed myself as a middle schooler, but reflecting. I was like, I didn't learn anything that whole year, like I couldn't remember a single thing that I learned. And my parents were always concerned, like, when I never had homework assignments. I was like, "Yeah, they just didn't assign us homework." So, yeah, and then that my parents were like, "Yeah, no, this isn't working." So they put us in an online learning program for two years after that. And so we were able to go to like high school in (Waxahachie,) because they had built a new campus. And so we will also be able to be together. So yeah, the difference in that was very apparent, I think.
- Jamie SandersYeah, like I actually lived in DeSoto for a little bit of time. So I went there for elementary school and my parents moved to Red Oak (for the same reason.) So you think it's like a unique, like, do you think that because they're black parents, they're like really making sure that education is at the forefront and that's why they want to make sure that your schooling was good.
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I think my parents have always like >instilled in my sister and I that you have to have education to be successful in life. And so That's why at a young age, I always like tried to pursue doing well in school. And so often I could just see how they prioritize that because my brothers had went to West. And so my mom was like, on the fence about sending us there. But I think we were at her doctor's office, and she was talking to some person that happened to go there at the time about it. They were really like endorsing like, no, it's gotten a lot better, you should put them in there. And so she was like, okay, and that ended up not being the case. But yeah, it just really show that she, they always tried to prioritize our education. And I think it was just a little bit unfortunate, because I know that's something that happens a lot with black families. It's like all we have to go to the white areas for our children to be educated. And that's I think that's very unfortunate, because that even that thought process stayed with me even when she was in colleges. I was like, Oh, I don't want to go to HBCU, which is like, a wrong way to think like, you can get a good education at HBCU with like, kind of this thought process like, Oh, well, if you go to a white institution, you're getting a better education. And so I wish that like the work would be done in the elementary schools and like, the middle schools, and like more resources would be given to them so that way, we don't look at Black education that way.
- Jamie SandersYeah. Yeah, I completely understand that. I remember when I was going through that experience of transitioning from a quote unquote, Black school to a white school, there was a lot of things that I noticed immediately can you tell me the differences between going to the Black school and the white school.
- Stacia MckellumYeah, for one thing, like I kind of mentioned,homework was obvious difference, because I didn't get it at West. Also, just books, like the books in DeSoto were limited and very worn down and old. And we had more access to those things in Waxahachie, and also just access to technology, like the technology, at West was very old and limited. So yeah just things like that.
- Jamie SandersHow about like the other kids?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, also, the kids at West were, I mean, quote unquote, bad like a lot of them. I know specifically, where I learned, like, realize this may not be like a school where I'm progressing is because like they had this thing called a common assessment. It was basically like a test you took for each subject. And as an incentive to like, get everyone to pass the principle was like, "Okay, if out of every grade, like if everybody passes all of their common assessments, you get to go to like a pizza party or do something." And so, my seventh grade class, only three of us passed all of our common assessments. And I was like, wow, like, out of like, 200 students out of my class, only three of us pass all of our common assessments. So I think I'm not not gonna necessarily blame the children and like them not wanting to learn, but I do think that some of them may not have went to school to learn.
- Jamie SandersYeah. So shifting gears a little bit to you like
- Jamie Sandersyour life now. So are you a sophomore? Just trying to
- Jamie Sandersclarify,
- Stacia MckellumI'm a junior
- Jamie SandersYour a Junior. Okay, so how is college going
- Jamie Sandersfor you right about now?
- Stacia MckellumUm, I think it's going pretty well. I mean,
- Stacia Mckellumquarantine college is definitely different. But, um, the parts
- Stacia Mckellumare positive, they're still trying to keep relatively
- Stacia Mckellumnormal, have been still progressing, and I think I'm
- Stacia Mckellumdoing okay.
- Jamie SandersOkay. Um, so, shifting gears to SMU,
- Jamie Sandersspecifically, what made you choose that school?
- Stacia MckellumWell, my parents actually put a lot of
- Stacia Mckellumlimitations on where I could go for school. Like they wanted me
- Stacia Mckellumto be local, um and so like, not only just in state, but also
- Stacia Mckellumlike, near the house that limited a lot of my options. But
- Stacia MckellumI know my mom, or at least I don't know, like with you, but
- Stacia Mckellumlike with a lot of black people. SMU has a lot of clout. They're
- Stacia Mckellumlike, Oh my gosh, that's such a good school. So my mom had told
- Stacia Mckellumme about that. And I was like, Okay, I'll look into it. So I
- Stacia Mckellumstarted looking into it. And when I went on a tour, I was
- Stacia Mckellumlike, Okay, this is where I want to go because like it kind of
- Stacia Mckellumjust checked all the boxes that I wanted, like I wanted a kind
- Stacia Mckellumof big school but like not too big. Like I wanted the
- Stacia Mckellumprofessor's to be able to know me. It was going to be close to
- Stacia Mckellumhome like the people seem really nice. The dorms were beautiful.
- Stacia MckellumAll those things and it had what I wanted (to study.) I was like,
- Stacia MckellumOkay, this is where I want to go.
- Jamie SandersYeah, what's your major by the way? Political
- Jamie SandersScience. So there's like I like went to UNT for undergrad. So
- Jamie Sandersthis is like conception of SMU as being a quote unquote, white
- Jamie Sandersschool. So what is it like being a black student at SMU?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I will admit, um, I wasn't necessarily
- Stacia Mckellumthinking about that aspect when I was looking at schools because
- Stacia MckellumI went to school in Waxahachie. So I had, some of the students
- Stacia Mckellumat my high school were like, "oh, SMU is like really white."
- Stacia MckellumAnd I was like, "Oh, well, we go to school and white people now,"
- Stacia Mckellumit'll be fine. But when I went here, I didn't realize it was
- Stacia Mckellumthis white. And so that, that adjustment l was definitely
- Stacia Mckelluminteresting. At first, I felt like I had to, like, be a
- Stacia Mckellumdifferent person, kind of at first. And so that was
- Stacia Mckellumdefinitely a weird transition.
- Jamie SandersAnd are you like currently working? Or are you
- Jamie Sandersjust focusing on school?
- Stacia MckellumI work on campus, I work in the residence
- Stacia Mckellumlife and student housing office.
- Jamie SandersOkay, cool. Um, so how does activism fit into
- Jamie Sandersyour daily life?
- Stacia MckellumUm, I think it's just really like, as far as
- Stacia Mckellumlike, a practice, like, trying to point out the different ways
- Stacia Mckellumthat you can try to make the world better in the moment, it's
- Stacia Mckellumdefinitely becoming more apparent after this election.
- Stacia MckellumAnd it becomes harder to like, know when to like, do something
- Stacia Mckellumthat's going to be productive, or and then do something that's
- Stacia Mckellumgoing to be like, confrontational. And so I know,
- Stacia Mckellumspecifically, like, yesterday, I was walking back to my dorm, and
- Stacia MckellumI saw
- Stacia Mckelluma student like, in America flag shorts, and actually, Ti told me
- Stacia Mckellumthat she was like, any person that wears like, American flag
- Stacia Mckellumoutfit. That's kind of a red flag. And so that was the first
- Stacia Mckellumthing I saw. And I was, and that's the first thing I
- Stacia Mckellumthought, I was like "ah, its probably nothing." And then I
- Stacia Mckellumwalked by, and I turned around, I see that they have like a
- Stacia MckellumTrump flag cape on. I was like, Okay, now in this moment, I
- Stacia Mckellumcould like be confrontational, but then I like told my BLM team
- Stacia Mckellumabout it. And they were, they were like, kind of like, okay,
- Stacia Mckellumso we, as black students on this campus on this very white
- Stacia Mckellumcampus, we need to lean on each other in this time. So they
- Stacia Mckellumwanted to, like put together an event where like, we all just,
- Stacia Mckellumlike, got on zoom and study together. And like, just work
- Stacia Mckellumcomfort, like for each other in this moment. And so I think
- Stacia Mckellumthat's really what activism is. Sometimes, sometimes it's like,
- Stacia Mckellumof course disrupting. But sometimes it's like, Okay, what
- Stacia Mckellumis the best way to serve the community that we're in? And
- Stacia Mckellumlet's do that.
- Jamie SandersThat's a great definition. I really like that.
- Jamie SandersUm, so how does it affect your relationships, like your
- Jamie Sandersfriendships and your significant others?
- Stacia MckellumI think, as far as my friendships, and my
- Stacia Mckellumsignificant other, we're all pretty much on the same page. I
- Stacia Mckellumthink with my parents, like we kind of mentioned, it's kind of
- Stacia Mckellumhard, because my parents are more old fashioned in thinking,
- Stacia Mckellumand a lot of ways. And so like, being an activist in general is
- Stacia Mckellumlike, not even just like, pro black its like, for everyone.
- Stacia MckellumAnd so I think sometimes it's like, hard for them to
- Stacia Mckellumunderstand that. And even sometimes, like, I don't
- Stacia Mckellumnecessarily think my parents are pro black, because I think that
- Stacia Mckellumthey recognize a lot of issues in the black community. And so
- Stacia Mckellumthey're not necessarily like that. I think they're also like,
- Stacia Mckellumwell, "black people do this, and this is wrong. So they need to
- Stacia Mckellumfix this." And I'm just like, well, there's a bigger picture
- Stacia Mckellumthere. You know, it's like when you're oppressed, you know, you
- Stacia Mckellumkind of need to fight the oppressor first, before you can
- Stacia Mckellumfix what's in the community. And so I think in terms of our
- Stacia Mckellumrelationship, that's kind of been hard, because they don't
- Stacia Mckellumunderstand that but at least with my friendships, and like my
- Stacia Mckellumromantic relationship, everybody understands that. And so it's
- Stacia Mckellumokay, about that.
- Jamie SandersYeah, I'm kind of want to probe real quick with
- Jamie Sandersthat term, you just said, So what exactly is "pro black?"
- Stacia MckellumI kind of think of it as like, you're trying to
- Stacia Mckellumadvance the black community in all of the areas that you can,
- Stacia Mckellumas many as you can. Um, I'm still trying to like work with a
- Stacia Mckellumdefinition because I've heard some people think, well, if you
- Stacia Mckellumdate interracially like you can't be pro black, because
- Stacia Mckellumyou're not like advancing the pro black. That means advancing
- Stacia Mckellumthe black family. And I'm still like, trying to see if I
- Stacia Mckellumnecessarily agree with that. But I definitely think that being
- Stacia Mckellumpro black is like trying to advance the black community as
- Stacia Mckellummuch as you can. So like shopping with black businesses,
- Stacia Mckellumhelping your fellow black neighbors out, like sewing into
- Stacia Mckellumblack communities.
- Jamie SandersOh, okay. So shifting gears a little bit to
- Jamie Sanderslike we've already talked about this whole time, but like, let
- Jamie Sandersme just ask specifically, what are your first memories of race
- Jamie Sandersin general?
- Stacia MckellumUm like, I think I'm very different in the
- Stacia Mckellumsense that like, I didn't have experiences or Race, like young,
- Stacia MckellumI think I always had a concept of me being black, but it never
- Stacia Mckellumwas like,
- Stacia Mckellumlike a thing that was wrong or like necessarily different until
- Stacia MckellumI got to college. Because I always kind of knew I was, I
- Stacia Mckellumalways knew I was black. But I wasn't as aware about that I was
- Stacia Mckellumblack until I got to college. And I'm like, "wow, no one looks
- Stacia Mckellumlike me." And also just like, being in an environment where
- Stacia Mckellumthe culture is also very different. Because like I said,
- Stacia Mckellumeven in high school, like, we still had at least a half black
- Stacia Mckellumpopulation. So it's like, all the white students are a little
- Stacia Mckellumbit different from you. But then you have this other group
- Stacia Mckellumthat's, like, similar to you, so you don't feel out of place. And
- Stacia Mckellumso but when I got here, I was like, "Okay, so I'm this thing
- Stacia Mckellumthat's different." And I also felt like it was something that
- Stacia Mckellumkind of made a barrier, like in me engaging with other people,
- Stacia Mckellumbecause freshman year, they had this thing called Camp or our
- Stacia Mckellumlike, they ship those off to this camp, and we like did camp
- Stacia Mckellumactivities, or whatever. And so i a lot of that time, like when
- Stacia MckellumI would try to engage with different people. It was just
- Stacia Mckellumalways hard. And I never knew why. Because I also knew, like,
- Stacia Mckellumthe people around me had like a really easy time, like, building
- Stacia Mckellumrelationships with people. And I didn't really understand why.
- Stacia MckellumAnd when I thought about it more after the fact, I was like, I
- Stacia Mckellumthink it might just be like, like a culture difference. And
- Stacia Mckellumlike, it's making it hard to like, connect. Because like,
- Stacia Mckellumwe're, we're different in that way. And so like we think
- Stacia Mckellumdifferently, and we may talk differently, and so, yeah.
- Jamie SandersLike, do you think maybe it's because he grew
- Jamie Sandersup in DeSoto? Which is I looked it up before this about 50%.
- Jamie SandersBlack and I think considered a black community?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, no, it's definitely I think its a black
- Stacia Mckellumcommunity, like we would have one person that was white, it's
- Stacia Mckellumlike our school. And so yes, I think being black was it was
- Stacia Mckellumjust a thing, but I didn't really have a concept of it
- Stacia Mckellumuntil I like was around majority white people. And then I was
- Stacia Mckellumlike, "Okay, so this is completely different than what
- Stacia MckellumI'm used to."
- Jamie SandersYeah. So now I'm going to shift gears to be more
- Jamie Sandersspecific about activism. So like, We're going in there now.
- Jamie SandersOkay. Um, so how did you first get involved in activism?
- Stacia MckellumUm, I think I kind of mentioned it to you
- Stacia Mckellumbefore, as far as like doing activism work, it was because my
- Stacia Mckellumfriend Ti reached out to me, after everything happened with
- Stacia MckellumGeorge Floyd and she wanted to make a GoFundMe to pass out t
- Stacia Mckellumshirts, blacklivesmatter t shirts on campus, and she ended
- Stacia Mckellumup getting way more money than she anticipated. And she was
- Stacia Mckellumlike, You know what, we can actually do some good on campus
- Stacia Mckellumwith this. And so she was like, she wants to make a team of
- Stacia Mckellumpeople that she trusted and to do the work with. And so she
- Stacia Mckellumreached out to me. And I was like, "Yeah, no, I want to do
- Stacia Mckellumthat, because I never really had that" opportunity presented to
- Stacia Mckellumme. And so that's kind of how I got into like, doing the work.
- Stacia MckellumBut I think my time in college, like I've always, I was building
- Stacia Mckellumon like, my black consciousness. And so I was always like,
- Stacia Mckellumlooking into black issues and learning about them. So I was
- Stacia Mckellumalready kind of, I guess, in a way priming myself to get to
- Stacia Mckellumthis place to like, actually be in a position to do the work,
- Stacia Mckellumbecause I was like, already educating myself on it. So yeah.
- Jamie SandersDo you think that's because like, that was
- Jamie Sanderseasier to do since you were in college? I feel like a lot of
- Jamie Sanderspeople I know, have built on their consciousness, in school
- Jamie Sandersin college.
- Stacia MckellumYeah, like I said, I think, because I'm going
- Stacia Mckellumto a white school. Like, okay, well, let me really investigate
- Stacia Mckellumwhat it means to be black. And so I was looking into that,
- Stacia Mckellumbecause like, I never really realized that that was a thing
- Stacia Mckellumuntil I got to school. And also because I just like, am not
- Stacia Mckellumunder the umbrella of like, my parents. And so I could kind of
- Stacia Mckellumjust like, investigate whatever and like, go and learn whatever
- Stacia MckellumI want to learn or know more about.
- Jamie SandersMm hmm. So you mentioned your friend Ty, and
- Jamie Sandersthen getting a group of people together. So when did the Black
- Jamie SandersLives Matter chapter at SMU, become itself basically,
- Jamie Sandersofficially
- Stacia MckellumI think. I would say that it all kind of
- Stacia Mckellumcame together early June. Like by that point, she already had
- Stacia Mckellumso many ideas. So by that point, we were already like having
- Stacia Mckellumweekly meetings, getting calendars together, having
- Stacia Mckellummeetings with other people to like, get stuff started. So like
- Stacia Mckellumas soon as we touch campus like we're going so yeah, I would say
- Stacia Mckellumearly June was kind of like, okay, we're doing this.
- Jamie SandersSo are you like a part of the school (chapter)? Or
- Jamie Sandersare you just based at SMU because you are all SMU
- Jamie Sandersstudents.
- Stacia MckellumUm, I don't know. We wouldn't necessarily
- Stacia Mckellumsay we're a chapter because we're not like Officially
- Stacia Mckellumchartered by the school like, we wanted to make sure we stayed
- Stacia Mckellumseparate from the school. So we didn't like endure any type of
- Stacia Mckellumintimidation or anything. So yeah, we're just kind of like, I
- Stacia Mckellumknow one way that Ti likes to conceptualize it is like Black
- Stacia MckellumLives Matter is like a sentence. So it's like, we're just a group
- Stacia Mckellumof students that come together, and are trying to, like, spread
- Stacia Mckellumthat message. So you came in,
- Jamie Sanderswhat's your title again? As a member?
- Stacia MckellumUm, I don't necessarily have a title, like,
- Stacia Mckellumwe're all pretty fluid, I think. And in that department, but I, I
- Stacia Mckellumdon't know, I know, Ti at one point was like, "well if we had
- Stacia Mckellumto put a label on you and probably would be 'vice
- Stacia Mckellumpresident'". But for the most part, we're all pretty, like,
- Stacia Mckellumequal in that area. Like we all have pretty much the same
- Stacia Mckellumweighted voices on like decision making and like tasks and all
- Stacia Mckellumthat.
- Jamie SandersOkay. Um, yeah, because Bethany called you. Vice
- Jamie SandersPresident so I wanted to, be sure.
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I guess I mean, if you have to put a name
- Stacia Mckellumon it, I guess.
- Jamie SandersHmm.
- Jamie SandersSo.
- Jamie SandersSo you only did so you've only been to one protest so far?
- Jamie SandersCorrect.
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I mean, I guess if you count the like,
- Stacia Mckellumblack student athlete commission or committee where they had a
- Stacia Mckellumprotest. Before that, I think it was I forgot it was for Jacob
- Stacia MckellumBlake, like they had one before our protest. So I guess that
- Stacia Mckellummakes two way. Yeah.
- Jamie SandersBut you organize the one that you mentioned
- Jamie Sandersbefore, right?
- Stacia MckellumYes.
- Jamie SandersCan you tell me how that came together?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, so um,
- Stacia MckellumI don't even know when like, we first realized that, like, we
- Stacia Mckellumwant to do a protest, like as soon as we came back, because it
- Stacia Mckellumwas pretty early in the semester when we decided to do it. But it
- Stacia Mckellumdefinitely took like, a good amount of planning and work. And
- Stacia Mckellumlike reorganizing as time went on, like, just making sure that
- Stacia Mckellumwe had speakers, we had to map out the route and like, walk the
- Stacia Mckellumroute and make sure it was like, okay, and like, check the
- Stacia Mckellumweather, and it get supplies and all that. So it was a lot, but
- Stacia Mckellumlike seeing- I- we all kind of anticipated, like it might be a
- Stacia Mckellumlot of people going just based off of the social media
- Stacia Mckellumengagement. But we never anticipated like that many
- Stacia Mckellumpeople. And so I think that just made it all worthwhile.
- Jamie SandersSo how was that day? Like? Can you tell me a
- Jamie Sanderslittle bit about it?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, no, it was, it was very stressful,
- Stacia Mckellumbecause like, like I said, we couldn't really gauge for sure
- Stacia Mckellumhow many people were going to be there. And so we only had two
- Stacia Mckellummegaphones. And so Ti was on one and I was on the other one. So
- Stacia Mckellumwe were like, kind of worried people. If we were going to be
- Stacia Mckellumable to hear each other if, everybody was going to be hear,
- Stacia Mckellumlike we would be uniform on chants. And so we were kind of
- Stacia Mckellumworried about that, because we weren't sure if it was going to
- Stacia Mckellumbe like, okay, two people came or 500 hundred people came. And
- Stacia Mckellumjust like getting everything together last minute, was like
- Stacia Mckellumkind of stressful, but like, as soon as it was like time Oh, and
- Stacia Mckellumalso because it like, kind of started raining that day. But it
- Stacia Mckellumwasn't crazy. So as soon as everything like started, it was
- Stacia Mckellumlike, very exhilarating for me. Um, I think also, particularly
- Stacia Mckellumwhen Ti gave her speech. It was just like, yeah, we're out here.
- Stacia MckellumAnd we're gonna desturb this environment. And we're gonna
- Stacia Mckellumfight for our lives and like, it just really felt good and
- Stacia Mckellumrewarding. Also, this so many people were like, wanting to do
- Stacia Mckellumthat with you and also people that were driving by that honked
- Stacia Mckellumat us and all of that. I was like, wow, okay, people actually
- Stacia Mckellumcare. So yeah, no, it was very, very uplifted and encouraged
- Stacia Mckellumafter and just like, my heart was warm after
- Jamie SandersCan you tell me the route?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, so we actually walked mostly on the
- Stacia Mckellumoutskirts of SMU we started at like, the gate eight over the
- Stacia Mckellumstadium is it's like, um, like blank little stair well
- Stacia Mckellumsituation right there. So we started there, and like past
- Stacia MckellumHighland Park church, and walked up the side of Hillcrest and
- Stacia Mckellumstayed that way, and then like, just like, made a rectangle and
- Stacia Mckellumended back at gate 8
- Jamie Sanderswhat was the campuses reaction or like
- Jamie Sanderspasserbys.
- Stacia MckellumFor the most part, it was it's too bad. Like
- Stacia MckellumI said, we have people that supportted it. And we're, like,
- Stacia Mckellumhonking at us. But we did. And actually, I found this out
- Stacia Mckellumrecently, and I didn't know this. So we had somewhat
- Stacia Mckellumcoordinated with the police just in the sense like, they wanted
- Stacia Mckellumto make sure that they reached out to us and made sure that
- Stacia Mckellumwanted us to make sure that they reached out to us and wanted us
- Stacia Mckellumto know that they wanted us to be safe basically. And so They
- Stacia Mckellumwanted, they had an agreement with us that they would be in
- Stacia Mckellumthe surrounding area. But we were like, "We don't want you to
- Stacia Mckellumbe seen by the protesters, because some people will not
- Stacia Mckellumreact well to that." And so they were in like in unmarked cars
- Stacia Mckellumaround the area. And so apparently, like a lot of people
- Stacia Mckellumhad tried to, like, come in, like counter protest. And like,
- Stacia Mckellumthey were stopped. And I didn't know that I just knew before
- Stacia Mckellumthen we had like one guy that was in a trump shirt, like
- Stacia Mckellumsitting on the side, trying to intimidate us. And, and he was
- Stacia Mckellumlike, like, running alongside protestors, I guess. Like, I
- Stacia Mckellumdon't know what he was trying to accomplish with that. But there
- Stacia Mckellumwas that one person. And there was another person that was
- Stacia Mckellumlike, he kind of looked like he was in militia gear, but like,
- Stacia Mckellumnot necessarily like weapons. And I think that was just
- Stacia Mckellumanother intimidation tactic. So there was like those few in
- Stacia Mckellumbetween people, or like somebody that drove by, like threw up the
- Stacia Mckellummiddle finger. But other than that, I was like, okay, we
- Stacia Mckellumdidn't have too many people. Like, that was another thing. We
- Stacia Mckellumwere really afraid of, like counter protesters. And we never
- Stacia Mckellumreally had that. But like, as I just found out, like, two days
- Stacia Mckellumago, like apparently a lot of people were like, trying to do
- Stacia Mckellumthat.
- Jamie SandersYeah, I was gonna ask this later. But like, are
- Jamie Sandersyou guys worried about counter protesters? They got their
- Jamie Sandersbeginning kind of violent recently.
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I think recently, um, the fear has been
- Stacia Mckelluma lot stronger. I think back then I wasn't afraid. I don't
- Stacia Mckellumknow. Maybe I was just like playing a little gangsta. At
- Stacia Mckellumthat point. I was like, "oh, let them come, you know, it's fine."
- Stacia MckellumBut like, now the fears have been a lot stronger to where
- Stacia Mckellumlike, as BLM, we're like, okay, we kind of want to put out
- Stacia Mckellumadvertisement, like, maybe don't wear your BLM apparel during
- Stacia Mckellumthis time. Like, especially Ti like, apparently, she had like,
- Stacia Mckellumgotten threats around the time of that protest. Like, um in
- Stacia Mckellumlike group chats and stuff. And it had been, like, reported to
- Stacia Mckellumthe police. And so they were kind of afraid, like, something
- Stacia Mckellummight happen after the election with her and then everybody in
- Stacia Mckellumour group was like, okay, y'all, we just need to stay inside. And
- Stacia Mckellumthat was also just very disheartening for me, because I
- Stacia Mckellumwas like, Why? Because of the results of an election, should I
- Stacia Mckellumnot be allowed to leave my room, you know, as a black person, or
- Stacia Mckellumas the like, person that participates in BLM? So I think
- Stacia Mckellumduring this time, it's like, definitely more scary than it
- Stacia Mckellumwas a couple months ago.
- Jamie SandersYeah. Okay. Um, so I kind of want to shift gears
- Jamie Sandersa little bit, we're definitely to come back to the election.
- Jamie SandersBut um, what do you think makes student activism different from
- Jamie Sandersother kinds of activism?
- Stacia MckellumHonestly, I don't know, I know that because
- Stacia Mckellumwe both have the same goals. But I think I don't know if I would
- Stacia Mckellumargue this fully. But I think because students on a campus is
- Stacia Mckellumlike, a smaller environment, like your reach is a lot
- Stacia Mckellumstronger. And you probably have a like, better chance of like,
- Stacia Mckellumactually getting things done. And also like, because students
- Stacia Mckellumpay to go to the university there at so it, least to some
- Stacia Mckellumdegree, if you get enough people to mobilize the university will
- Stacia Mckellumkind of have to listen to you because they want to take your
- Stacia Mckellummoney. And so yeah, I think it's more effective in that way,
- Stacia Mckellumwhere it's like, you're just in the city, like you have other
- Stacia Mckellumpeople that are contributing, I guess, more to thst city's
- Stacia Mckellumgovernment. And so they're like, "Okay, well, we only need to
- Stacia Mckellumworry about appeasing these people, and not necessarily
- Stacia Mckellumthese other people."
- Jamie SandersOkay, so like a lot of people like across the
- Jamie Sanderscountry, are like around your age group are going out there.
- Jamie SandersSo what do you think makes them keep going out there to fight?
- Jamie SandersLike, what makes you guys different? more passionate?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I mean, I'm honestly, I've been so proud
- Stacia Mckellumof that. I think. I think, from my generation, I've kind of
- Stacia Mckellumheard both to where some people are like, okay, we're tired,
- Stacia Mckellumlike, it's been going on for so long. But I think there's also
- Stacia Mckellumanother half of our generation that like, uses that fire to
- Stacia Mckellumlike, know, that we can make a change is like, Okay, well, if
- Stacia Mckellumwe keep going at some point, it's going to happen. I think,
- Stacia Mckellumalso, we have the benefit of knowing that time is kind of on
- Stacia Mckellumour side, like we're young. And so we can if we fight for it, we
- Stacia Mckellumcan see it within our like, lifetime. And so I think that
- Stacia Mckellumkind of encouragement, like, keeps people going and keeps
- Stacia Mckellumpeople hopeful.
- Jamie SandersAnd you mentioned you call it fire, so I'm going
- Jamie Sandersto use that term again. Um, is that fire always constructive?
- Jamie SandersOr is there occasionally times when it can burn too bright?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, no, that was definitely one thing I
- Stacia Mckellumthought of when you asked the last question, I think, um, that
- Stacia Mckellumfire can be used in a more radical way to where you're
- Stacia Mckellumlike, it just depends on how you're viewing the situation.
- Stacia MckellumLike, I think the desire and the passion is still the same. But
- Stacia Mckellumif you're like, "Okay, well, we need to just destruct everything
- Stacia Mckellumand start over," then you're more likely to go out and like
- Stacia MckellumBe more violent and do more illegal activities. Whereas if
- Stacia Mckellumyou're like, Okay, "we just need to like, tweak some things
- Stacia Mckellumwithin the system," then you're more likely to like, not do
- Stacia Mckellumthat. So I think if the fire is still good, but it has to be
- Stacia Mckellumcontained in a way where you're not distracting from your
- Stacia Mckellummessage, I definitely could understand why people would
- Stacia Mckellumreach a point to where they wanted to act out in that way.
- Stacia MckellumBut I think at the end of the day, like when you don't contain
- Stacia Mckellumthat fire, it just distracts from your message, because
- Stacia Mckellumpeople only see you as somebody that's like, breaking things
- Stacia Mckellumnow. And that's somebody that's like crying out for help, you
- Stacia Mckellumknow, or crying out, because you don't want to be treated like
- Stacia Mckellumyou don't matter anymore. And that message kind of gets lost
- Stacia Mckellumwhen you let that fire kind of go out of your boundaries.
- Jamie SandersYeah. Okay. So shifting gears a little bit away
- Jamie Sandersfrom student, like student activism and talking more about
- Jamie Sanderslike Black Lives Matters in general. So can you tell me a
- Jamie Sanderslittle bit about your feelings about police brutality?
- Stacia MckellumOh, yeah, I mean, I don't even know what I
- Stacia Mckellumcan say. Besides that, it sucks. Um, I think it's just really,
- Stacia Mckellumit's really sad and unfortunate, that as black people, we have
- Stacia Mckellumthis like, completely different experience with the police from
- Stacia Mckellumeveryone else. Because to everyone else, like the police
- Stacia Mckellumare the superheroes that the people that you call, like I
- Stacia Mckellumsaid, that's how I viewed them when I was younger. That's who
- Stacia Mckellumyou call when you're in distress, but it's like as black
- Stacia Mckellumpeople, we don't know who to call, you know, it's like, when
- Stacia Mckellumsomething happens, it's like, Okay, do I just deal with this
- Stacia Mckellumsituation that I'm in? Or do I call the police and like, risk
- Stacia Mckellumthem killing me. And it's really unfortunate, because I think,
- Stacia Mckellumlike, now, when I see police, it's like, I don't know, to
- Stacia Mckellumwhether or not I should feel safe. And like, a lot of people
- Stacia Mckellumdon't have that experience. And it's really frustrating, because
- Stacia Mckellumthey can't relate to you on that, or can't understand that.
- Stacia MckellumSo it's like, when people are like, black- "back the blue."
- Stacia MckellumAnd like, "we stand with the police officers," it's like, you
- Stacia Mckellumdon't even understand that, like, as a black person. Like,
- Stacia Mckellumon a good day, yes, I could get a cop that like, you know, helps
- Stacia Mckellumme out. But that's not always a guarantee. And so I think it's
- Stacia Mckellumreally frustrating that you don't always run into people
- Stacia Mckellumthat like, understand what that means.
- Jamie SandersSo like, Can you define exactly what police
- Jamie Sandersbrutality is to you?
- Stacia MckellumI think, definitely the use of
- Stacia Mckellumunnecessary and excessive force, and of course, deadly force on
- Stacia Mckellumpeople. Um, when other options can be taken, I see a lot of
- Stacia Mckellumtimes, and that's when it becomes a race thing for- first
- Stacia Mckellumfor me, when you see white people that like maybe resisting
- Stacia Mckellumarrest, and they get to live to tell the story. But like, with
- Stacia Mckellumblack people, if they resist arrest is like, you're
- Stacia Mckellumautomatically, you know, killed or harmed in some way. It's
- Stacia Mckellumlike, that's not. That should automatically be the response to
- Stacia Mckellumresisting arrest, like there are other options that can be taken.
- Stacia MckellumAnd so when the police respond to the actions of someone, in a
- Stacia Mckellumway, that's just like, inappropriate and completely
- Stacia Mckellumunnecessary, and it ends up costing somebody their life like
- Stacia Mckellumthat, or harming them in some way, like that's what it is.
- Jamie SandersOkay, so, um, you're realitively young, so
- Jamie Sanderslike, I don't know if you have any deep remembrances of it, but
- Jamie Sanderslike, what were your first ideas about? blacklivesmatter before
- Jamie Sandersyou got involved, like when you were younger?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I mean,
- Stacia MckellumI think I definitely saw them in like, oh, respectable light,
- Stacia Mckellumlike I saw them as people like, okay, these are the people that
- Stacia Mckellumare going out and protesting when these things are happening
- Stacia Mckellumin the black community, because it wasn't just like, you know,
- Stacia Mckellumwhen Trayvon got killed, or Sandra Bland got killed, like,
- Stacia Mckellumof course, it was something that like shook our world. But at
- Stacia Mckellumleast for me, and like my family at that time, like, we were
- Stacia Mckellumupset, but we stayed in our houses. And so to see the people
- Stacia Mckellumthat were like, going out and like saying, like, "no, this is
- wrong Enough is enough." Like that was very, that was very
- encouraging image and inspirational images. So that
- was my first though like,
- Jamie SandersMhm. So like, do you ever, like have any specific
- Jamie Sandersthoughts about Trayvon Martin, when that happened? How did you
- Jamie Sandersfeel?
- Stacia MckellumNo, yeah, I definitely I felt very confused.
- Stacia MckellumBecause I couldn't understand even at that age, like how
- Stacia Mckellumsomeone who's walking home by himself, could end up dead
- Stacia Mckellumbecause like he's a black man in a hoodie, walking in an area
- Stacia Mckellumwhere I guess he wasn't supposed to be, and even on top of that,
- Stacia Mckellumlike how he couldn't even defend himself and be protected by the
- Stacia Mckellumlaw after that, like the fact that George Zimmerman was able
- Stacia Mckellumto kill him from some law that they pulled out of their boot
- Stacia Mckellumafter the fact, it was very confusing and disheartening,
- Stacia Mckellumeven at that age.
- Jamie SandersYeah. Um, I want to like shift specifically to
- Jamie SandersGeorge Floyd, if you're okay with that.
- Jamie SandersWhen did you hear about what happened to George Floyd?
- Stacia MckellumMy mom actually briefly mentioned to me, we're
- Stacia Mckellumat the kitchen table. She was like, did you hear about that
- Stacia Mckellumguy like they were on his neck or something like that. And the
- Stacia Mckellumsad part is like, it didn't even like, hit me that hard hearing
- Stacia Mckellumthat news. I was just like, Oh, well, it's another Tuesday, you
- Stacia Mckellumknow. But once I like saw it, that was just me hearing about
- Stacia Mckellumit. But once I like saw it, that's when I was like, wow,
- Stacia Mckellumlike, they just have no shame at this point. That they like,
- Stacia Mckellumstayed on that man's neck for eight minutes. And like, allowed
- Stacia Mckellumhim to die. So yeah, that was like my first time hearing about
- Stacia Mckellumit is seeing it on TV.
- Jamie SandersYeah, did you see the whole video?
- Stacia MckellumI think I did end up seeing the whole video. I
- Stacia Mckellumtried not to for the longest time because I didn't know if I
- Stacia Mckellumcould take it. But I think for the purposes of me just being
- Stacia Mckelluminformed about everything that happened, because also people
- Stacia Mckellumwhen these situations happen, people, like make so many
- Stacia Mckellumexcuses for the police. It's really crazy. And so I was like,
- Stacia MckellumOkay, well, let me watch everything that I've said
- Stacia Mckellumeverything that was done and get all the information and see if I
- Stacia Mckellumcan understand where these people are coming from. And so
- Stacia Mckellumthat's when I was like, Okay, I need to watch the whole thing.
- Jamie SandersYeah. So what do you think made his death
- Jamie Sandersdifferent? Like an explosion of protests happened after him? Why
- Jamie Sandersdo you think that happened?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I think, because there were so many
- Stacia Mckellumthings that like, added into it, that like made it such a big
- Stacia Mckellumdeal. For one it was because like, the police were called on
- Stacia Mckellumhim for a fraudulent $20 bill. For two like, so many police
- Stacia Mckellumofficers were there during the rest. And still, they like
- Stacia Mckellumdidn't do anything. And also on top of that, like, when we see
- Stacia Mckellumpeople, when we see the police shoot people it's like, it's
- Stacia Mckellumlike a one second thing. You know, like with the benefit of
- Stacia Mckellumthe doubt, like they just lost control in that one second, or
- Stacia Mckellumthey reacted too quickly. A second, but it's like you had
- Stacia Mckellumeight minutes while you were on this man's neck to decide to
- Stacia Mckellumchange your mind. And like, let him live. And we sat there and
- Stacia Mckellumwatched this man die. Like for those eight minutes, I think
- Stacia Mckellumthat really just like, triggered a rage in the black community
- Stacia Mckellumthat we hadn't seen before. Because that was just a very
- Stacia Mckellumunique situation that we had had to deal with before.
- Jamie SandersYeah, so it seems more like a conscious choice
- Jamie Sandersinstead of an automatic response.
- Stacia MckellumYeah. And also just like the body language that
- Stacia Mckellumhe took, you know, His hands were his pockets. He was just
- Stacia Mckellumrelaxed. People were standing there pleading with him to like,
- Stacia Mckellumget up and he was just like, not responsive. So yeah
- Jamie Sandersyeah. Okay, so shifting from George Floyd
- Jamie Sandersstuff. Breanna Taylor was also someone who recently died around
- Jamie Sandersthat time. How do you feel about the way people reacted to
- Jamie SandersBreonna Taylor?
- Stacia MckellumI mean,
- Jamie Sandersdo you need a minute?
- Stacia MckellumNo, I think for Breanna Taylor, it just hits in
- Stacia Mckelluma different way. And I think it highlights a lot of issues that
- Stacia Mckellumwe even have within the black community. Because I think I
- Stacia Mckellumthink that a lot of people rally for her, but I don't think it
- Stacia Mckellumwas at the same extent as it was for George Floyd. And I think
- Stacia Mckellumthat a lot of this because she was a black woman. And like,
- Stacia Mckellumthat's very disheartening for me because I feel like had she been
- Stacia Mckelluma black man, it may have been different. Because also like a
- Stacia Mckellumlot of people try to paint the George Floyd situation a
- Stacia Mckellumdifferent type of way. They were like, Oh, he's a criminal. Like
- Stacia Mckellumhe served what happens to him or whatever. But like Briana Taylor
- Stacia Mckellumwas an upstanding citizen in her bed asleep. Like there was no
- Stacia Mckellumreason why, like, her killer shouldn't have been arrested.
- Stacia MckellumBut yeah, and it's not even necessarily that I think that
- Stacia Mckellumthe black community could have gone harder for Breonna Taylor,
- Stacia Mckellumbut it's also just like, people in power don't care as much when
- Stacia Mckellumit's a black woman because of the Attorney General in Kentucky
- Stacia Mckellumis a black man. You know, and he still is like, "well I stand
- Stacia Mckellumwith the police". So it's just yeah, it's very disheartening
- Stacia Mckellumfor for me with (unknown noise)
- Jamie SandersDo you think it's because of your identity as a
- Jamie Sandersblack woman?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I definitely think that
- Stacia Mckellumcontributes a lot to it. I'm very interested in black woman
- Stacia Mckellumissues particularly. And so I had like, looked a lot into the
- Stacia MckellumBreonnna Taylor situation. And also just like a lot of
- Stacia Mckelluminstances where black women dealt with police brutality and
- Stacia Mckellumlike, nobody even knows about those situations. And I'm just
- Stacia Mckellumlike, well, what's the difference? And then for me, it
- Stacia Mckellumjust comes down to like, Okay, well, this is black woman. And
- Stacia Mckellumthese other situations are black man. Of course, there are a lot
- Stacia Mckellumof situations with black men that we don't know about too.
- Stacia MckellumBut it's like, it's not at all even an accurate reflection to
- Stacia Mckellumthink that Sandra Bland, and Breonna Taylor are the only two
- Stacia Mckellumblack woman to do with police brutality. And so yeah, I was
- Stacia Mckellumgonna say something else, but I forgot what it was.
- Jamie SandersThat was good.
- Jamie SandersI want to like we're winding down. I don't want to keep you
- Jamie Sanderstoo long, though. This is really good. I do want to ask a
- Jamie Sandersquestion about the violence surrounding the protests. So
- Jamie Sanderslike, a lot of people have defined what happened around it
- Jamie Sandersrioting which you use that term?
- Stacia MckellumI actually, I don't think that I would. I
- Stacia Mckellummean, I think if someone else uses it, just like, for the sake
- Stacia Mckellumof like, being on the same page, I would, but I don't, my first
- Stacia Mckellumthought, when I hear those stories happen isn't that
- Stacia Mckellumthey're rioting, you know, like, for me writing is like all their
- Stacia Mckellumtrouble making or, like, there's just a bad, very bad connotation
- Stacia Mckellumassociated with rioting. And for me, I don't see it that way. I
- Stacia Mckellumdon't necessarily agree with it, either. But it's like, I can
- Stacia Mckellumsympathize with them in a way that like a lot of people
- Stacia Mckellumaren't, and so I don't necessarily see that. As
- Stacia Mckellumrioting. I mean, I definitely think it's violence. And I
- Stacia Mckellumdefinitely think it's wrong, but like, I don't associate the same
- Stacia Mckellumlike connotations that people other people do with what
- Stacia Mckellumthey're doing.
- Jamie SandersSo, once again, we're gonna shift gears to like,
- Jamie Sandersdefunding the police, what exactly what you call the
- Jamie Sandersfunding the police?
- Stacia MckellumFor me, it's just taking some of the
- Stacia Mckellumresources that the police are receiving for certain things and
- Stacia Mckellumallocating them to other areas, at least for me, um, because I
- Stacia Mckellumknow specifically, this was something that like BLM had
- Stacia Mckellumworked on, we have crafted a White House petition to defund
- Stacia Mckellumthe police in the area of like them dealing with mental health
- Stacia Mckellumcrises. And like, taking some of that money, and like using it to
- Stacia Mckellummaybe create a committee that's like specialized in mental
- Stacia Mckellumhealth crises and sending those people out to deal with those
- Stacia Mckelluminstead of the police. But I think defund the police is kind
- Stacia Mckellumof like a trigger word for conservative conservatives,
- Stacia Mckellumwhere they're like, "Oh, no, you can't take money away from the
- Stacia Mckellumpolice." But it's like, if they're not doing a good job in
- Stacia Mckellumcertain areas, and even a lot of police officers themselves, say
- Stacia Mckellumthey're not equipped for certain things. Like take that
- Stacia Mckellumresponsibility from them, and then use some of the resources
- Stacia Mckellumthat are going towards that and allocate them to something
- Stacia Mckellumthat's actually going to make the community better, better.
- Stacia MckellumAnd that's what like, that means for me at least.
- Jamie SandersSo I want to ask questions about the DFW area
- Jamie Sandersspecifically, like, I'm from Texas, too and from the area.
- Jamie SandersAnd I know that like racism here is like, a different a- like a
- Jamie Sandersdifferent animal. What are some Dallas Fort Worth, like, issues
- Jamie Sandersthat you think should be addressed?
- Stacia MckellumI think, for one, and I think I may have
- Stacia Mckellumheard this somewhere that like Dallas is one of the most
- Stacia Mckellumsegregated cities in the nation. And I definitely I don't know if
- Stacia Mckellumthat's true, but I definitely think it's very segregated. It's
- Stacia Mckellumlike, oh, like Dallas is supposed to have all of these
- Stacia Mckellumamazing houses. And like all the rich people and celebrities live
- Stacia Mckellumin Dallas, and I'm like, that's not my experience. You know, I
- Stacia Mckellumgo "Ruby's" chicken, in Oak Cliff Or, you know, and I'm
- Stacia Mckellumlike, I see, you know, the chickens in people's front yards
- Stacia Mckellumand stuff. And so like, it's really crazy that, like, those
- Stacia Mckellumtwo things can coexist in the same city. And like, no bridge
- Stacia Mckellumis being made between them. It's like we can have, like Dallas
- Stacia Mckellumhas a very bad homeless people problem. But yet we have all of
- Stacia Mckellumthese rich people that also live in Dallas, and like, those two
- Stacia Mckellumthings can coexist. And that kind of rubs me the wrong way. I
- Stacia Mckellumwish it wasn't like that. Because it's like, we have a
- Stacia Mckellumcity where like so much money is available. But yet we have so
- Stacia Mckellummany people that like sleep under bridges. Yeah.
- Jamie SandersSo I was going to ask about chief Hall But I feel
- Jamie Sanderslike we should talk more about the election towards the end
- Jamie Sandershere. So like, what do you think? The like, like, what do
- Jamie Sandersyou think the results of the election are gonna affect? How
- Jamie Sandersdo you think they're gonna affect the Black Lives Matter
- Jamie Sandersmovement.
- Stacia MckellumUm, I hope that it doesn't like cause people to
- Stacia Mckellumbe so intimidated, at least like right after the election
- Stacia Mckellumhappens, because I know that Trump supporters are gonna come
- Stacia Mckellumout the woodwork. From what I hear, that's what happened in
- Stacia Mckellumthe 2016 election. And that's where like some conflict had
- Stacia Mckellumtook place, because like, a lot of people were like, really bold
- Stacia Mckellumabout being Trump supporters. I see. Okay, sorry, I think that
- Stacia Mckellumnot planning for the worst, I think that we're definitely
- Stacia Mckellumgoing to have a lot of work ahead of us if Trump wins. Um, I
- Stacia Mckellumknow, like a lot of people that are like jumping to the worst,
- Stacia Mckellumthey're like, "oh, the Proud boys are gonna come out and like
- Stacia Mckellumwreak havoc and all of that. But I'm not gonna think that
- Stacia Mckellumnegatively, I definitely think that with Trump in office, just
- Stacia Mckellumthe nature of how he is as a person, black people are gonna
- Stacia Mckellumhave to fight a lot harder, if he win now I don't necessarily
- Stacia Mckellumthink that all of our issues are going to be solved if Biden is
- Stacia Mckellumin office, either. But, yeah, and just the outcome of the
- Stacia Mckellumelection, a lot of people that aligned with Trump's ideals, are
- Stacia Mckellumgoing to try and make it hard, I think, for BLM to do the work
- Stacia Mckellumthat we're trying to do. But I think we're gonna have to push
- Stacia Mckellumthrough, regardless.
- Jamie SandersYeah.
- Jamie SandersUm, and since we're winding down into like, the last four
- Jamie Sandersminutes, I'm gonna ask you some closing questions. So why do
- Jamie Sandersyou? Why do you keep going out there to do these protests and
- Jamie Sandersorganize these things?
- Stacia MckellumYeah, I don't, I don't think I can ever get to
- Stacia Mckelluma place as a black person where I can lose hope, like it gets,
- Stacia Mckellumdefinitely gets hard, and it gets exhausting, and it gets
- Stacia Mckellumtiring, and get sad. But I have like, the people that I love in
- Stacia Mckellummy family to think about the future generations of black
- Stacia Mckellumpeople that I have to think about, and I just feel a
- Stacia Mckellumparticular responsibility in my life, to do what I can to ensure
- Stacia Mckellumthat they can have a better life and a better experience in this
- Stacia Mckellumcountry than I've had. And even so like, now, like the people,
- Stacia Mckellumthe black men and the black women in my family that I love,
- Stacia MckellumI have to fight so that they don't get killed by police, you
- Stacia Mckellumknow, or that they don't have to experience a lot of things that
- Stacia Mckellumhave been going on. So yeah, that's what keeps me motivated.
- Jamie SandersYeah. So what do you want people in the people
- Jamie Sandersnow and in the future to know about the Black Lives Matter
- Jamie Sandersmovement in SMU, or in general
- Stacia MckellumI want them to know that the Black Lives Matter
- Stacia Mckellummovement isn't just for liberals and black people, like Black
- Stacia MckellumLives should matter to everyone. You know, and by saying Black
- Stacia MckellumLives Matter isn't saying that all lives don't matter, or black
- Stacia Mckellumlives matter more. And we're saying that black people have a
- Stacia Mckellumtendency to be disregarded in this country. And I don't think
- Stacia Mckellumanyone can disagree with that. Like I think most conservatives
- Stacia Mckellumeven realize that that is definitely a thing that happens
- Stacia Mckellumin our country. And so it's, it's not exclusive. Like it's a
- Stacia Mckellummovement that should everyone should be on board about. So
- Jamie Sandersyeah.
- Jamie SandersAnd I feel like a lot of activists, like have someone
- Jamie Sanderswho, like an activist in the past who inspired them, which
- Jamie Sandersone inspires inspires you the most? Um, I think Currently, um
- Stacia MckellumSonia, Renee Taylor has been inspiring me the most. Because
- Stacia Mckellumwe actually had her speak to SMU students, Fuzhou for an event
- Stacia Mckellumand I was just like, doing a lot of research on her work. And
- Stacia Mckellumlike, she's really putting in the work. A radical self love
- Stacia Mckellumand like how that like, um really engaged with the Black
- Stacia MckellumLives Matter movement. And she's just doing a lot of great
- Stacia Mckellumthings. And she just has a lot of nuggets of wisdom to give.
- Stacia MckellumAnd so I just find myself completely in awe a lot of times
- Stacia Mckellumover everything that she says and does. And of course, like
- Stacia Mckellumthe classic of Martin Luther King, Rosa Parks, all of those
- Stacia Mckellumpeople. I think Rosa Parks particularly because even though
- Stacia Mckellumlike we all know, it was staged, it was still like a very scary
- Stacia Mckellumthing for her to have to do that. And yeah, like I respect
- Stacia Mckellumthat a lot.
- Jamie SandersYeah, um, and last question. Are there any
- Jamie Sandersquestions I should have asked you.
- Stacia MckellumNo, I think I think you (covered everything)
- Stacia Mckellumquestion. I think you did a good job.
- Jamie SandersAw thank well were definitely done. So I'll
- Jamie Sandersstop the recording.
- Jamie SandersYou did-